Being stuck is such a hopeless feeling. Trying to find the words to try to get someone to understand how you truly feel & the hurt that comes with the understanding of your world. I feel like I can’t get my partner to see the hurt he keeps causing not letting me just vocalize & feel with me. Instead every one of my words has a judgement & opinion from his sight that is not needed nor helpful. My heart hurts because I can’t release this pain that I need to. I’m with our kids 24/7 & I’m so exhausted. He goes out into the world & can go wherever he pleases while I have to sit home & have limitations. I love my kids but I am so burnt out. I feel guilty because I’m trying to be the best mom I can possibly be but I know I’m also robbing my children from their best childhood experiences cause I can’t catch a break. My partner & I fight & he goes straight to the room when he comes home while I’m still working, taking care of 2 little ones on my hip. I’m exhausted… He knows I am raising these kids all by myself… again. I raised my now teenager since I was 15. I feel trapped in my mind and I don’t know how to get out of this prison.. I’m crying out to God everyday to help guide me and give me strength to carry myself through and not actually kill myself. Because the weight is just SO HEAVY.