I hate that I’ve come to the realization. That we just don’t align with each other. But that’s okay is what I keep telling myself. I’ll continue to try to find my better half in other people while having to make it work with you for the sake of the boys. It’s my fault for continuously trying to find the man I envision in you, because it’s non existent. You don’t care to listen to my pain or hurt, you care to vocalize your opinion, values, & beliefs alone.

That’s why when I try to walk away, you cry and beg for me to come back and stay. Every single time. But when you leave & walk away. I’m okay with letting you do so because I know what I can gain apart from you. & that I need to just keep remembering. To keep carrying me through in life. Until the pain stops and the storm around me finally calms into peace.